I just turned 45 last weekend.

That’s not old, but if you consider that most of my family dies before 60, it’s past middle age.

I have some hope; my aunt just celebrated her 70’th. She started taking care of herself, well, just about at my age right now. Maybe it’s not too late to do something.

Still, I have a lot of miules on me, and they’re hard miles. I’ve had surgery on both knees, I’ve recently had an injury that causes me to develop excruciating pain after sitting in a car for any length of time.

Anyone who knows what it’s like to have someone dig buckshot or, for that matter, rock salt-, out of their backside after a dispute over the ownership of produce knows how tough it is to forget those old injuries, and I’ve had more than a few. I hobble a bit after getting out of a car. I take a few extra moments to get moving in the morning. I’m heavy, so all my joints take a little extra pounding. When I spend a lot of time doing yardwork, it all hits me pretty hard for the next few days.

I ain’t ready to give up yet.

I have a child who needs to be guided through the more troubling times of her life. I intend to be there.